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I bought a house this weekend!
house hunting sucks
You would like to think that you’ll never have to worry about online dating again once you get married, right? Well, try buying a house. They’re basically the same damn thing.
You see each other…you try to envision a future with them…you *heart* them. You make arrangements to meet up. It’s awkward at first. Is that them? They don’t look as good as their pictures. You get to know one another a little bit more. You talk about your exes for way too long. Then you say your goodbyes and plan to hang out again.
Then they go pending and you never hear from them again. Bish, you were talking to someone else that entire time? You took someone else’s offer? I thought we had something special. DIAF.
Hey Joshua, what have you been up to?
2017 was very good to me. It involved a lot of work and stress, but it provided me with so many precious moments and personal milestones.
- I got married. It was the single most perfect day of my entire life. I can only hope that everyone finds the love and happiness that Sarah has brought into my life.
- I began to thrive in school. I made the Dean’s List and the Honor Society while also working a full-time job. School is so much easier when you actually commit yourself to doing well – and Quizlet…that helps a lot too.
- I got Invisalign. I have always been self conscious about the gap in front of my teeth. I rarely smiled because of it. I went to the dentist and gave him a ridiculous amount of money and I had to wear (at times) very painful aligners for the better part of a year. It worked, though! I got beautiful, Hollywood-like teeth now. I still don’t smile, though.
- Work is going well. I’ve joined committee’s, I’ve taken on more responsibility and I began mentoring with the COO of the company. Basically, I just did a bunch of things that’ll make my resume look better. But I’m learning so much and gaining a ton of experience.
- Finally, I went and talked to a doctor about my long battle with anxiety. I’ve had terrible anxiety since around the time that I started high school and it’s caused me so much grief throughout my life. It’s caused me to be uncomfortable with myself, alone, and has been the root cause for a lot of my dark moments and failed relationships. Being that I’m now married and can’t exactly isolate myself away from the world anymore to deal with it like I used to, I finally sought medical help. The medication that I was put on has caused a night and day difference. I wish I hadn’t been ashamed and got help earlier.
I think that about covers all the important things. My year was pretty amazing aside from that terrible Mass Effect game. It seems like since 2015 that I’ve proclaimed each year that passes as my best year. I think that’s a pretty good indicator that I’m doing something right. Hopefully 2018 continues that trend. I’m looking forward to continuing to be a better me, getting a new car, going to Iceland, meeting TJ’s baby (and maybe making one of my own), buying a house, and exploring whatever else the universe throws my way.
Just Checking In
There’s a part of me that really misses that old Tumblr community. That time back in 2007-2012ish when it was just the absolute coolest. Everyone knew everyone’s business, we all had relationships and it was a creative resource. It was the first site that you went to in the morning and it was the website that you stayed on 3-hours after the time that you said you needed to go to bed. Now it’s really nothing more than a time capsule. I do enjoy going through those old posts and seeing how life was back then. I’m not proud of a lot of the immature things that I used to post, but I am proud of how far that I’ve come since then.
Since it’s been awhile, here’s how my life is going…
- I’m about to turn 33. How did that happen?
- My face healed pretty well from this. There’s a scar, but you can hardly see it unless it’s really cold outside. In that case it turns various shades of purple and red, like a boss fight from the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle arcade game.
- School is going very well. If I can somehow hang on to this 94 that I have in my astronomy course, I’ll have made the Dean’s List – which is huge for me because I don’t think that I’ve ever made an honor roll of any kind in my life. School is so much easier when it’s not full of drama and eating disorders.
- Work is going great. I just got a sweet raise and I’ve started a mentorship with our Senior Director and COO. Things are definitely on the up and up.
- I’m getting married in a little over 6 months from now. I couldn’t be happier with my relationship. I look through this old Tumblr and I see posts from the times that I was in other relationships. I see the good times and I remember the bad. If I had it all to do over again, I wouldn’t change a single thing. This is the happiest that I’ve ever been and I have no doubt that I’m with my person.
- Aside from having to end my relationship with my mother – which is a long, ridiculous story – every aspect of my life is just absolutely fantastic. I think that it’s important to realize that we don’t all need to take the same path. I look back on my old Tumblr posts and I see a guy that wasted his entire 20′s and really underachieved. But that’s okay, because I’m on my own path and I needed to figure my shit out on my own and when I was ready. Do your thing and don’t worry about comparing yourself to others. And surround yourself with people that love you, that support you and that aren’t going to take advantage of you. With that support system, you’ll be capable of so much more than you could have ever imagined. That’s the most important thing that I wish I could go back and tell that old Mooshoo.
- That Power Rangers movie is waaaaaaaaaay better than I expected.
- Horizon is the best game that I’ve played lately. I really love that story and the world that they’ve built. It’s basically the complete opposite of how I feel about that new Mass Effect game. Fuuuuuuck that game (so far).
- Oh, and finally, I’ve come to terms with the fact that women poop sometimes.
2016 was a tough year for a lot of people. Many of our childhood heroes passed away, there was so much heartbreaking violence in the world, and it seems like, politically, our country is about to take a big step backwards. Also, people kept describing things as 🔥🔥🔥 and “lit af.” Just terrible.
For me, 2016 was just perfect. I got engaged, I got to travel and see the world, I went back to school, moved into a wonderful place with my person, and got to take part in a beautiful wedding with some of my closest friends. 2016 was the best largely because of the wonderful people in my life. Here’s hoping that we all have a wonderful 2017.
Back to School
I have school tomorrow.
That’s something that I haven’t said since May of 2007. The world was different back then…
- There was no iPhone
- Digg was far more popular than Reddit
- Alisson Reynolds sent me an invite to this
Myspace-ripoff called Facebook that looked incredibly lame
- Tobey Magurie was still Spiderman
- George Bush was president
- Guitar Hero was an obsession
- People were “cranking that” Soulja Boy
…so, yeah, it’s been a while.